screw it..

and just when you said that, when i was doing my geo paper, as far as i remember, i almost tore it.. and then, i quickly roughly finish it, and quickly think about it, just when it was deep enough, i didnt realise that it was time's up.. then en.rashid say "okayy.. masa dah tamat!!"

it scared the shit out of me.. i look at my paper.. i still havent done a few questions.. i simply shade it.. and i didnt even check my paper.. in my mind.. i was thinking..

i already screw the friendship, why not the exam paper??

;(

seeing my new header always make me smile a lot.. it reminds me all the fun times all of us had together.. each picture represents different stories and happiness and how much fun we had,

but,

thinking of wat you said made my smile fade away..

and how can Melvin thought Renny is my brother!? ohmygod.. and sorry to emily, melvin, renny, jarett for being so harsh to u guys just now.. anyway, thanks for keep asking me what happen, seeing my bloody face damn moody.. guesssss it.. argh!

she is so lucky, but why does she cry??

objective =)

the reason i made this header.. because i surfed the net for like an hour to find a new header.. and it did not succeed... all also didnt look nice in my bloggg eventhough its nice.. most of it is so randomm... so, i decided to MAKE one.. a meaningful onee.. =) i dont know wheather its nice or meaningful for u all.. but it is to me.. in fact.. its VERY meaningful to me... =) =) cause i love u guyssss =)) i just love it <3

=] xoxo <3

cousin's cousin

ohmygod!!! remember i said, my cousin was onlinee~~ later on... he said he online because his another cousin want to use it... then later i was chatting with THAT cousin.. i didnt know who is he.. and i thought he is another 12 year old or younger kid.. so!, i was talking to him like a 3 year old... talking.word.by.word... cause his english was not that good.. so i made conclusions that he was young.. and and HE TURNS OUT TO BE 18! so paisehhhh...

but i still didnt believe.. so i upgraded my english.. and i asked him wat course he is taking, and which college did he go.. cause i figured if he is lying, (cause i scared my cousin prank me), he wont be able to answer my question.. then he told me he was doing engineering in megatech college.. eventhough i dont know which college is that.. but still i think its somekind of college.. haha.. i feel so badd.. ahahaha..

and then, he turn out to be playing with my brothers last time.. cause he asked me wheather i'm alex sister??? i was like, YOU KNOW HIM??? then he was like "for sure laa...".. and actually he knows me too... ~~ hahaXDD.. but the last time he saw me was like when i was 4~~.. i was like mygoddd.. he can rememberrr~~

OHMYGODDD... and then.. the worst part is.. i visited his friendster... and he turn out to be a st.johner.. and he was linked Mr. Gengta very well.. i was so shock.,, and he turns out to be close to him.. he even told me what rank is mr.gengta.. which i dont know.. (dont scold me.. i mmg very outdated... )and the brother was even closer to Mr.Gengta.. which is like 29 years old.. my godd... and i said.. wat a small world.. he said.. " i feel, its not the world small.. its Malaysia which is small.." and i cant help but to agree with him.. haha

and then i asked him wheather he knew my name.. he was like lol.. sandra lo.. i was like.. my goddd.. i dont even know who the hell he is and he know so much about me~~ hahaha..

ohmygodddd!!! and the worst thing is he is related to so many people through friendster to me.. he evn knows mei mei, and like so many ppl.. rujin somemore, connected to xiao wei, vivian.. even to my brother's girlfriend.. wathehell..~~ wow.. godddd!!! and jia jun somemore.. wth.. jeremy somemore.. how the heck..?! so many SBU ppl.. present ones and last time ones.. goddd!! malaysia is reallyyy smalll... i cant deny it... hahaXD

tsk..tsk..

i seriously tabik my cousin... he is having his UPSR.. and he is onlining NOWW!! wat the hell... its like.. he not scared at all.. tsk..tsk.. tabik dia... somemore.. he's eating pizza... godd!! later if he stomachache, then kantoiii... this boy arr.. dunno how to take care of himself...

=)))

I TOOK LIKE 2 TO 3 HOURS TO DO THIS.. I KNOW IS NOT that NICE.. BUT STILL.. ITS 5.03om.. AND I STILL HAVENT BATHE.. CAUSE OF DOING THISSSS~~.. NO, I'M NOT SMELLY... I FIGURED THAT THIS WOULD BE MY BEST HEADER.. =)

I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSS!! OR GIRLS... AND GUYSS...

ohmygoddd.. my neck is damn pain.. i've been sitting in the same posture for almost 4 hours adyy.. shit larhhhhh.... my finger is damn pain... i think its broken.. i can barely feel it.. shitttyyy assss...

=D??

hmmm.. wat should i post todayyy??? probably about today.. (duhhhh....)

this morning.. i barely talk.. and in class.. i barely talk to.. then i felt really sleepy.. or something.. so i just sleep.. i heard siew jin, low, sheau hwa and ade talking loudly.. laughing loudly.. and the moment i put my head on the table, they kept queit... i know they are whispering.. cause its like SUDDENLY so queit.. whispering bout me.... i wanted to get up and look at them and see what are their reactions, gossiping abou tme halfway and i look up.. i think i will scared the shit ou tof themm haha... then on secong thought.. its better if i just show a sign that i am actually listening to them.. like give them my precious fourth fingerr???

i was laughing like shit queitly... then i decided not to la~~.. nevermindddd.. let them think i am emo... so fun!! hahahahXDDD... i think they will go wth.. and smack me tomorrow.. hahaha XDD

then after recess, i cannot tahan di... so i talk.. but not as hyper as yesterday.. thanks to SOME teacher outside there who slapped me to wake up when i was sleeping during KH paper.. for i dunno how many timesss... arghhh~~~ you.know.who... and then.. after that.. it was BM period.. so.. the teacher came in and jaga us for the exam.. since i cannot sleep.. cause i already WOKE up... and everyone is sleeping.. cause no one slept when SHE came in.. so i took out a piece of paper and wrote so many things to adeline.. then we were passing and passing and passing to each other whenever the teacher wasnt looking... =P and there's where i knew your blog address.. =P

there's one time, when i finish writing.. i thought of passing the paper to adeline cause i saw teacher closed her eyes.. to double check.. i look at her again, and to my horror.. she was looking straight to my eyes... i quickly look down and i was laughing like shit myself... hahaXDD..

the post before this post was random.. so, ignore ittt... hahaXDDD... adeline is reallyy going madd.. she soooo... 6 letters, start with an "S".. (dun ask me what is that ANYMORE ARR...)

siewjin gave me a PIECE of advice todayy.. haha..i bet she will go wth.. when she's reading this... to my surprise.. i agree with her.. and i was telling her so many things.. then she was like "huh??, wat do u meannn???" i was like -_-"" nevermindddddd...~~

since you italic me, i shall italic YOU too~~... (i know its stupid...=P) how do u expect me to talk to you like we use to before when you didnt even dare to talk or look at me????? you didnt even come up and say hi or watever you call it... and whaattt??? you were not angry at me also???? not angry can scold the shit out of me arr??? probably, when you are happy, you will scold the shit out of ppl.. then, she will be kena-ing a lot from you... kesiannn~~

may god bless you, adeline... or shall i say blast?? =P

yishh..

*sigh*

ohmygod.. why i not hyper and happy again.. *sigh*.. probably cause i explain the whole thing again just now.. *sigh* made me remember of it.. but.. aih.. nevermindd laa... i just dun want adeline to be sad about it.. she's totally annoying me nowwwww.. with her sms-ess.. dunno why.. i somehow feel annoyed.. i just shut her up.. ouch! but who cares?? we still love her..

*sighhhhh*

there's nothing to be *sigh* of.. but somehow.. *sigh*...
i guess sheau hwa is totally right.. i have 10 000 different feelings and emotion in a minute... she is so totally right... *sigh*

dammit.. how could i let sheau hwa be right about that theory...?? rightttttt... maybe cause i'm hungry.. hahahhaahXDDD... or the emo songs alex were listening to.. arghh..

righttttt... that was such a ridiculous reason... dammit larrr... *sighhhhh* whyy arrr???

hyper in action

lalala~~~ i'm free from emo!!! at lasttt~~~~!!! all my problems are down in hellll~~~... hahahaha!!!.. righttt... -_-"

i was..or am.. super hyper today... laughing the shit all day longggg.. its been sooo longggg.. i talked so muchh and crapped so muchh and laughed even much-errrrr!! it must be the sheau hwa.. cause i didnt see her for so many days.. and she is a big fan of mine.. so, maybe i missed my bigggggggg fannn... hahaha!!...

i tour around the school today.. and sheau hwa said i am so much worst than PMS.. cause you are like having 1000 different emotions in a minute.. i cant help but to agree with herrrrr~~.. ahahaha... i dunno i did how many crazy and stupid things today... the crossword puzzle, the handmade masterpiece in tissue.. with i spoilt it... ugh!... but the crossword puzzle i made was fun... it made me so happyyy when ade, low, sheau hwa and siewjin.. took time to find all the words.. which actually contain names of my 13 closest friends and 5 of my pet-siblings... malas lah nak post the picture.. got to go through so many stuff... maybeee.. i post laterrrr larrr..

its SO not fairrr when i'm hyper and there's nobody online to let me disturb.. darn it... after school, when i was waiting for my mom.. alesha, syara, kok weng, tabitha, michelle, low, and me.. crapped so much.. its more on ME.. i crapped so much that i havent been crapping the last few days.. i talk and laugh like there's no tomorroowwwwwwww~~~...

my blog song and the header is so damn emo.. i.had.to.change.it.. but i like it.. but stilll.. it has to go... =) i'll change it laterrr.. just bare with it, for a little whileeee.. okayyyyy??? ;)

i'm not angry with you anymore so dont give me that fierce look that even adeline is scared of it... tsk..tsk... contol mannn~~~... but of course, you can be angry at me.. for.. i dunno wat... up to you ;D i hate being emo.fullstop.

adelineeeee~~~ BEWAREEE!!! the stabbings and the chainsaw massacre.... *sound of the stabbings*... haunt you at night... wakakakaka~~~....

i know my post, is,.. so...so.. hyper?? and its getting annoying.. its annoying me toooooo~~~... so i shall stopp???

yeah, i think i shoulddddd ;DDDDDD

tatatatatatatatatA~~~~~

*SIGH*ssssssssss

i'm over with that matter... i am toooo stressed out.. not in the sense of study, stress.. like i will study sooooooo much until i get stressed.. *sigh*... i got sliced by my piano teacher again.. while she was asking me to write down all the scales ONE BY ONE... she was playing the piano.. seriously very scary.. she playing all the angry angry songs.. which almost made me deaf cause it was almost like banging the piano rather than playing it.. full of feelingss... eventhough its soo chunted but its so scarrryyyy... i was like keeping my fingers crossed that she wont slapppp me.. eventhough, its so obvious she wont.. but if she was my mother, i think i would be in heaven.. or hell right now... hell is much more suitable for me now... *sigh*

so many darn things happen and somemore its exam week and somemore THAT thing happen.. and SOMEMORE my sucky trials results and SOMEMORE, my sucky piano... and SOMEMORE.. i'm so tired... physically and emosionally... *sigh*..

you said i wont accept your apology... how sure are you?? you havent even try.. dammit.. you always blame godd... bla bla bla.. righttt.. i'm pushing it.. sorryy... as i say,!!! I AM SO STRESSEDDDDDD!!!!!

i think.. if you would just apologise (which you barely will, cause you dont regret, right??), i will accept it with an eye closed.. *sigh*.. i dont have any more energy to slap your mind up... just slap it yourself.. i want to call her so much... so muchhhh.. that i dial her number then, off the phone.. then dial again then off again.. call her, not to make her angry.. but to tell her wat kind of hell i'm going through.. because i so used to tell her everything.. and all of a sudden.. i can even count how many words i talked to her with my fingers... *sigh*...


*SIGH*.... ohmygoddd.. i feel like dyinggggg... banging my head on the wall, stabbing myself, punching my face, drinking dishwasher, jumping down the building, eating watever pills i can find in a big amount.. right.. too violent.. i feel like hell mannn... *sigh*

i'm sooo... *sigh*.. i have no one.. no one to talk to.. correction, not no one to talk to.. its no one i CAN talk to about every single hell thing.. except Jessy.. but not like she can understand every single thing cause we're in different schools... *sigh*....

*sigh*...

I'M SO DARN TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE MANNN.....

*SIGH*

i realise, i end all my paragraphs, with *sigh*sss...

*SIGH*.....

god..

i'm sorry i kept posting and deleting posts... cause there were so many thoughts in my mind.. *sigh*.. up to you.. but..

you just "F"-ed me... u.. just.. "F"-ed me. . . . . . . . . . .

ohmygod..

do you realise that?? y..you.. just.. "F"-ed me..

after all i did for you,
after all the times we had,
after the promise we had,
after the jokes we joked,
after the talks we had,

but in the end??

you "f"-ed me... YOU "F"-ED ME!!!

that was sooo unpredictable.. i didnt even thought of it.. how stupid.. why didnt i expect it?? how stupid and silly am i to believe you will keep the promise you promised eventhough you broke it over and over again..

how..
how,,??

to tell you the truth.. i still CAN'T believe it..

;(

its nothing personal..

i just need.. i dunno..

just..

its nothing to do with you..

i need time to figure this out..

sorry..

i didnt thought.. *sigh*..

sorry..

you dont need to apologise.. i promise i wont get angry with you..

sorry..

life seriously have to go on.. eventhough its difficult.. its so much difficult than i expected...

-??-

*NO COMMENTS*

unhappy comments, transferred to another blog,

happy comments, stay here...



but, the thing is.. right now.. i dun have any happy things to post about..

=) --> =(

eventhough i have my own emo blog... but i just love this blog..

-------------------------------------------------------------
=)i dunno wat is the matter???
=)i dunno wat was the problem??
=)i didnt know the fact...
=)i guess she is right...
=)but, the matter is...
=)i didnt think she was right,
=)i thought u were different on wat she said..
=)but i think..
=)now,
=)to my surprise,
=)i know,
=)that whatever she said was the truth...
=)not a single lie...
=)i'm just dissapointed..
=)i hope you dont just change her just like that...
=)i guess,
=)our friendship or whatever shit you call that,
=)is ...



=((OVER....

and life just goes on.....

DONT ASK...if you are smart enough to highlight and read wat i posted... i bet you are smart enough to read the first two words of this sentence...

tired...

at lastttt....!!! i finish uploading and posting the picturesss!!! i spent almost 3 hours to post all the PD pictures and add the captionsss.. lots of hardwork ya noe?? edit here, edit there.... that 3 hours, i could have do sooooo many things such as studying for PMR.. bullshit... so, I wud appreciate that if you just.. pls just tag on the chatboxxxxx!!!!!! and give comments...

okayyy???
thanXxx!