A VERY BIG HELLO!

In a blink of an eye, 8 months just went *poof*.. So, what happened today?

Well, I skipped school.. Not exactly skip.. I was too sick to go to school.. Sneezing all day and coughing.. ugh, it sucks when period pain comes along.. Anyway, im happy that i lost more than 2 kg in a day just cuz im sick..

Hopefully, his GOOD friends would stop teasing about me.. haha.. okay.. that's random.. Oh well, I WATCHED STEP UP 3 and its SOOOOOOO aweshomeeeeeee!

You know, I've been visiting ppl's blog these days.. and i start to wonder.. and compare how often I blog last time and now.. I used to blog like 6 times a day.. and now.. one month once? Well, I guess, things REALLY change..

The things I used to blog last time is like so different from now.. i dont know why but everytime I see her in the hallway or walked pass me, I feel like, very very upset.. LIKE ALL OF A SUDDEN, all the memories just hit me.. the good and the bad. Oh well, like Siew Jin said.. *see, i SPACED your name, SIEW JIN..* Life's full of changes, LIVE WITH IT, girl!

:D

im shoooooo happeh for idunnowad reasons.. Well well, trials coming.. and i gotta work my butt off.. SPM, lagi larh! why la.. why la i get sick now.. ish.. well, at least not during trials =D

HOPEFULLY NOT!

I cant wait for prom! :D It'll be such an aweshomeeeee day for me.. prom + birthday = best day of my life! :D nahhhhh.. dun think it'll be the best day of my LIFE.. HOW ABOUT MY MARRIDGE?! haha.. maybe most unforgetttttttttable birthday laaaaa.. =)

oh well, here are some random pictures :)

I miss 4 Beta :(

and i miss this moment too (L)

and definitely miss this piggg too! oink oink!

and lastly, this ♥

tatazzz! =D

Cliff dive and die.

“ Oh gosh! We are so going to try this! Here’s to the dare devils of the century!”
“Yes! Imagine flying through the air. I mean, flying without wings!”

As Siew Jin and Niro jumped for joy, as their adrenaline rush was pumped up within their bodies, I just stood there, watching the consequences flashing at the back of my mind.

“ I think we should just head back and catch a movie instead? I’ll get popcorn! With extra caramel butter, and a bunch of movies. Horror movies? Soppy love stories? Let go!” I said, tugging the both of them to come along with me.

“Boring.” the both of them said as they gave me the long stare. As the early morning, of ominous bank of dark clouds, and thick icy air fills, surrounding the spaces in the sky, Siew Jin and Niro was already all ready and set to go. The three of us reached the peak of the cliff after a few minutes. Siew Jin and Niro stood close to the brink of the cliff and as they looked down, they were fascinated and awed by the breathtaking view and how not many people would want to attempt to try or to make this daring stunt a hobby.

When they were all set again at the peak of the cliff, they jumped. I could hear Siew Jin and Niro screaming with joy as they were in the middle of diving, and their screams were finally drowned by the sound of the splashing of water as they landed at the very bottom of the cliff. Being the cautious coward person I am that day, I felt as if my conscience was trying to tell me that I was right all along. From the far view above the peak of the cliff above, I did not see them resurface from the water. It was just me standing at the peak of the cliff all alone, in the dark morning as the dead silence surrounded me. I should have known better.

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The clock strikes 10.10am. The hammer of our electric school bell was attracted towards the electromagnet to hit the bell and it rang instantly.

“Thank you, teacher,” our class monitor said as the whole class echoed. The second the teacher walked out of the class, I dashed out of the class and looked for my two best friends from the opposite class.

“Niro! Niro! Siao Jun! Guess what? Guess what?” I called out for them with excitement. They turned to look at me with their raised eyebrows, looking as cool as ever.

“What?” Siew Jin asked with a monotonous voice.
“My parents are going out of town tonight!” I squeaked.
“Oh my god! Are you serious? Mine too!” Siew Jin replied.
“You both wouldn’t believe this cause my parents are too!” Niro interrupted.

After the bell rang for the second time, indicating it was the end of recess, Niro suggested that we should skip the last few periods of school to watch the latest movie, namely, Inception. Everyone in school had watched it except us, so we sneaked out from school and drove to out favourite hangout place, The Pavilion. After the movie, we headed to the arcade and enjoyed ourselves.

“Girls, are you sure it’s okay for us to wear our school uniform and roam around the city?” I trembled.

“ Oh gosh, Sandra! Stop being a coward, who do you think in the entire world, cares?” Niro teased. As we walked out the mall, Siew Jin suggested that we should have a sleepover at Niro’s house and we all agreed.

Siew Jin stepped on her car brake as we reach Niro’s mansion. Once we stepped into her house, Siew Jin and I ran straight to her fridge and took all the food. We brought into her room to eat them and by midnight, her room looked like a dumpsite. Chunks of cookies were across her bed, chocolate sauce was smeared all over her carpet, sweet wrappers covered her table but she did not mind. We surfed the internet and went on youtube to watch some videos. Niro scrolled down the page while saying, “Nope! Nope! Nope!” and then she stopped at a thumbnail video about cliff diving,” Perfect!” she exclaimed while clicking on it with her mouse.

Three of us were excited and thrilled when we watched a video about a group of teenagers who went on a dare to cliff dive. They recorded it down and it seemed so fun, so we wanted to do the same thing to gain popularity and view. Then, we were set. Set to take on the daring challenge. We googled about our town and found a perfect cliff diving site. We hit the sack as soon as we found the exact location of Rocky Beach. It was said to be the best but most dangerous cliff diving site. However, we were not afraid at all but excited for it.

to be continued.... .. .

The last laugh.

Credits to Kristy Chong..

its exactly how i feel =)

First off, I want to say thank you for making me such a significance in your bleak and miserable life. I apologize because I cannot reciprocate your waves of emotions because I lack your mental retardation. Your impossible delusions of power and superiority have made me realize how much of a degenerate you really are. Oh, so you are hating on me? Well, bravo, I say to you with outstanding enthusiasm. I never did realize as somehow, I grew fond of your idiocy that I must say... is spreading like plague. Now, you cannot say I don't understand your hatred for me because I have been pondering about it a lot. Would you look at that?! I was THINKING about where your mental incapacity originated from. Maybe its your unusual blend of proteins and nucleotides in your DNA that makes you particularly vexatious. Perhaps its the impossible amount of pressure on your shoulders from being so insecure. Oh, how I pity. :(

Really, the things I hear you say about me is very amusing. I enjoy being placed on such a high pedestal and be thought of so much. My very presence bothers you! Do I really posses such a powerful aura where merely walking pass you across the halls strikes such a chord in you? Jealousy is a poison, my friend. I don't even need to lift a finger where you, on the other hand, gather your little two-faced companions to waste your breath discussing about how you abhor my ways. So you say I have changed. Have I changed into something better than you? Personally, I don't think I have changed. I still like licking the cream off oreos before eating the cookie. And if you repulse the way I am, why not talk to me? Do I instill such an amount of fear in you?

At the beginning, I have thought of making peace with you. But after much consideration, I realize degenerates like yourself have a mindset of an anus where all you ever will do is give people shit. What would confronting you do? Nothing, I say because you hate me and no matter what I do or say, you will still dislike my ways. So, my efforts will be futile. I have better things to do than care about what you say about me. I understand completely, how bleak your life is now. You just need something to make your day in school a lot more interesting, no? Well, if it does give you such satisfaction because you are just so incompetent like that, I shall not stop you. I am contented with the way I am and I don't need such adolescent, Hannah Montana kind of issues to get me through the day. At least when I dislike something or someone, I am consistent about it and not drift with wind of hypocrisy.

and my favourite line,

You entertain me. To watch your face distort in such a way when I walk pass you in the halls.

I laugh at you.

We're too old to be involve in all these bitchy drama ;)

We shall see who will have the last laugh at the end of the day.

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btw, to ppl who like not so good wan,

I know the language is a bit tooooo bombastic for you..

just go check the dictionary k?

Maybe it'll help you in your essay for the coming SPM

;)

ps: I'm just being nice =)

I rock till the max! not..

I tend to embarrassed myself all the time..

Today was kinda sucky.. nola.. actually.. its kinda okay.. =P it started with period pains in the morning which i could barely stand it.. during tuition i was dying.. den... the embarrassment started...

Case one: after tuition, u know like Martin tuitions.. after one class, they would ask you to get out of the class faster cause there's a big bunch of ppl waiting downstairs.. so the kakak was like, "cepat cepat cepat.."

and then i was trying to walk very fast but like i felt a little uncomfortable.. when i looked down.. oh.. great.. i looked like a fool.. then i stopped in front of the kakak and change my left slippers back to my left leg and vice versa.. i wore my slippers wrongly.. and the kakak was like laughing at me.. (>.<) that one case one of embarrassing myself.

Case two: Valerie and I were walking near pudu plaza to have lunch.. and suddenly, this super nice sport car came by.. like right beside us.. then i was telling valerie.. "oh.. my husband came to fetch me.." anddddddddddddddddddddddddd the window was kinda open.. (>.<) ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD the wife was right beside him.. to make matters worse, they ate at the same restaurant we did and was sitting the table next to us.. GREAT.

Case three: When we reached the restaurant.. i saw this guy was like smiling and talking to this girl who sit opposite him at the table.. and the guy wore specs.. and immediately.. i thought he was Derek. DEREK CHAN. yeah.. soooooooooo, i was like making stupid movements.. preparing to scare him from the back.. like *BOO!!!!! *shaking his shoulders* HI DEREK!" i was going closer and closer to him.. then the girl keep looking at me.. so i thought like one of his girl friends la.. as in GIRL.FRIEND. or cousin.. when i was about to BOO him.. a man came by and sit between the so-called derek and the girl.. and i was like, "huh? who's that?"

then i realised. .. ..it wasn't derek... T.T the girl kept staring at me.. and valerie was laughingherassoff at me.. T.T again, i embarrassed myself..

oh! such a great day! =P hahahaXD

One and the half.

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Each heart represent one month.

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boo. Imma missing you ;(

Can't text you. That sucks.

Can't talk to you in msn. Double sucky.

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18 hearts. 18 months.

enough time for 2 babies to come out.. hahaXD

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100 truths =)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Honey Lemon with weixing =D
2. Last phone call: Mom. She called me and asked if wx and i were done chatting
3. Last text message: To zhengkang.
4. Last song you listened to: Need you now by the Lady Ante..thing thing.. hahahXD
5. Last time you cried: errrrrrrrr.... early this week i think.. you see my emo posts den you know why.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nah.
7. Been cheated on: Dont think so =P
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope ;)
9. Lost someone special: Yeah.. ;(
10. Been depressed: Obviously! Who doesnt?
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope..

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Purple
13. Light pink
14. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: Lemme think.. i GUESS SO.. . . dunno..
16. Fallen out of love: Nah
17. Laughed until you cried: DUH!!! ahahhahXD
18. Met someone who changed you: Yeah =)
19. Found out who your true friends were: I find this question hard to answer..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeap!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: SURE! =D
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them..
23. How many kids do you want?: Er.. dunno wor.. depends? 3 or 4? hahahaXD
24. Do you have any pets: yeahhh.. my golden retriever =P
25. Do you want to change your name: er... i dun think so.. my parents and grandparents give me this name because they like it.. so i should accept it =)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: THIS IS THE BEST QUESTION! hahahahXD had an awesome party with weixing.. hahahaXD
27. What time did you wake up today: 8.45am? cause got tuition (>.<)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Doing addmaths project, chatting and texting..
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: SPM TO BE OVER OVER OVER!!!!!!
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Me not having period pain. It sucks.. really.
32. What are you listening to right now: Nothing? ahahhahaXD
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: DUN THINK SO.. .. Jerry also dun have =P
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: No one? hahahaXD imma happy today!
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook facebook and facebook.
36. Whats your real name: Sandra.
37. Nicknames: San, San-da-ra and many many more...
38. Relationship Status: dunno =P
39. Zodiac sign: imma the chicken yo! hahahaXD
40. Male or female?: Female lah.
41. Primary School?: SBU
42. Secondary School?: SBU
43. High school/college?: SBU.. hahaXD nola, jk! DUNNO LAH! not 18 yet..
44. Hair colour: blackkkkkk
45. Long or short: Longgggggg...
46.Height: 160cm around there.. i THINK
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah! ob-piously!
48: What do you like about yourself?: im happy! =D
49. Piercings: each on one ear =P
50. Tattoos: dun wann..
51. Righty or lefty: ? Right. Haha

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: 5 years old..
53. First piercing: 7 years old, i thinkkk..
54. First best friend: Jessy =D
55. First sport you joined: Swimming
56. First vacation: Las Vegas, california.. and somewhere around there.. hahaXD
58. First pair of trainers: -.- Dont know. You think I will go write dwn the date meh?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Nope! Later got dinner but just now yumcha with weixing, yum lotsa time ady..
60. Drinking: Same answer gonna be given..
61. I'm about to: Go for dinner!
62. Listening to: Fan rotating sound..
63. Waiting for: Family to get ready for dinner..

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: YEAH.., ofc... i love kids =)
65. Get married? : OFCOURSE!
66. Career: dunno worrrrr (>.<)

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Both
68. Hugs or kisses:Both
69. Shorter or taller: Taller gua.. =P
70. Older or Younger: Younger... Cause I feel old even though I'm not 18 yet! Aha
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms =P
73. Sensitive or loud: LOUD. VERY LOUD.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NO =.=
77. Drank hard liquor: think so. .. .
78. Lost glasses/contacts: nahhhhh.. im a careful person.. . but BREAK THEM, yes la... hahahXD
79. Sex on first date: wth.. no.. never.
80. Broken someone's heart: YEAH.. DEFINITELY (>.<) hahahaXD to an unknown guy who wanted me to couple with him.. OBVIOUSLY no right?
82. Been arrested: nope =D
83. Turned someone down: Yah..
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.. ofc..
85. Fallen for a friend: Yeah. Hell yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: I do.. but sometimes over confident =(
87. Miracles: Yes! :D If you think it will happen, it will :D
88. Love at first sight: er.. yes.. no.. dunno..
89. Heaven: YEAH! i always go there.. buffet =P nola! jk!
90. Santa Claus: nahhh.. never really did..
91. Kiss on the first date: Nah.. not gonna happen..
92. Angels: Yeaps

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NO. . .. . hahahahXD
95. Did you sing today?: Yeah.. I THINK.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: When i was 5 years old..
98. The moment you would choose to relive?: When i have my period pain =P getting it is like, the process when bella turns into a vampire.. its like HELL.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Nope..
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: If dont post then I spend so much time doing this for what?! hahaXD

A day out =D

WOOOTSSSS! food makes my world go round =D makes my tummy go round.. and my body too.. (>.<)

=D

This morning, i was suppose to for a blood test but.. sadly.. i forgot that i wasnt suppose to consume ANYTHING.. but i took my cough medicine.. ahhahaXD not funny actually.. got scolded by my mom (>.<)

hehe.. after breakfast.. after lunch.. after lazing around, after watching tv,

I went to Sg. Wang today because my mom wanted to get her wool.. for her knitting.. and so i tagged along.. and got myself a pair of sandals.. as mine has grew some long white beard = Old.. HAHA.. anyway.... yeahh..


at first, i tried on this.. but my mom says it looks like during the china china time.. those grandma, grandpa pull the cow in the sawah.. going "mooo mooo" like that.. i was like =.= wtheck.. and she say my toes are like OUTSIDE the shoe.. so she ask me to look for another one.. ahhahahaXD

den i got this! well, i think this is awesome =D cause it matches my shirt that time.. hahaa.. my mom said it looked better.. so i bought it.. =D

and then, we saw this shop.. selling somekind of rubber band.. an EXPENSIVE rubberband.. but its not exactly a rubberband.. and it was so cool.. can tie different ways =D so my mom bought one for me and one for herself =D you'll be amazed by how this band works =P

and finally, when we reached the shop which sells wool, we saw the lady boss knitting a skirt for her customer.. and i was like, "WOW MOM! its so nice!" Then the lady boss ask me to try on it.. and i was like, "hehe..no need la, auntie.. later i scared once i wear, all your thread come off.." then she was like, "dun be silly! if come off, i give you the whole skirt.." hahahXD so, i just tried.. and..

tada! it matched my shoe and shirt =D wooots! me like an angel, yo! hahahaXD nola, joking.. =P anyway, it was kinda sexy.. cause like got holesssss in betweeennnn.. luckily cannot really see through the skirt.. if not, "bye bye, sandra.." hahahahXD

hehe.. i asked my mom to make one for me.. but guess wad.. she said.."maybe for your 21st birthday, i'll knit a set for you.." with the necklace which is knitted, shirt, skirt, maybe shoes! hahahaXD cause like.. she said only the skirt cause RM600 and above.. (>.<).. yeah.. siewjin.. go "WOOOOWWWWWWW..." ahhahahahXD as expensive as my dad's tie.. ahahhaXD *hint hint*

hehe.. anyway, that's all.. buh bye!

ps: im really embarassed with my fb photos that my cousin tagged me.. ahhahhaXD

teeeeeheeeeee!

Words running across my mind.

Did this change everything?

***

my cousin is went back to Singapore.. and now, i'll find no one as crazy as her to camwhore with (>.<)

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Yesterday was a weird day for me.. or should i say, a weird night..

I've been lying down on the bed and staring at the ceiling for so long,

and I start to wonder,

and notice what's happening around me..

I've never been an emotional person but when it comes to friendships, it just hits me right on my face when i felt like we werent that close anymore.. Well, everyone thinks that my blog is totally dead.. i think no one thinks that i will ever update it.. I've always want to update it but I'm just out of words to describe what is actually happening around me.

Dont misunderstand,yo! nothing has happened.. its just, somekind of self-realisation or whatever you called it.. It's like, everything has changed. I mean, obviously life goes on and blablabla.. but.. i dont know.. i just feel there's like something missing in me..

Sometimes, I just feel like locking up all my friends in one room and make them stay with me forever. But that's impossible right?

Well, it's just as impossible as the quote "best friends forever".

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How I wish you could fill the space between my fingers now

and tell me that everything will be okay like you always do ;(

HAPPY SEXY SEVENTEEN, girl!

>

HAHAHAHHA! Hope u'll enjoy ur day! stop being emo, dude =D

Less than slash three.

I see the picture, its written all over your face.

Tell me, what's the secret that u've been hiding?

I should've seen it coming,

I should've read the signs.



Anyway, I guess its over.

An awkwardness that lies within our friendship.

peace ^^

Cheers ^D^

Strong bonds...

What happened to those?

I admit I miss the times.. but what can we do about it?

Amphibians.

imma so hyperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Diagnostic is finally overrrr! but there's more exams to come T.T kill me.

i've been crapping the whole day.. talk talk talk talk non stop until everyone also like dun wanna talk to me ady.. dun wanna entertain me =( then then then i started telling lame jokes.. and there will be an awkward silence... but i'll be laughing all the way by myself.. i damn syok sendiri lo.. but ahahha.. its okay =P

and and and also, i'm like disturbing everyone.. especially the juniors... this particular junior.. he damn short and cute lo.. then i ask him why is he so short. he was was like.. cause i fell down last time.. then another junior came.. then i ask the same question.. he said, "cause its not my time to grow yet.."

and i was like acting damn weird.... . .. to them.. so this boy was like asking me.. what are you?

i said, "amphibian =P"

hahahahaXD

during st johns, tabitha and i were teaching the recruits.. damn funny weyhhhhhh... tabitha was like talk talk talk so fast, also dunno if the recruits absorb what she say or not.. then the boy was like, "you're such a weird amphibian.."

HAHAHAHAHXD i tell you, i really act damn stupid in front of the boy.., ahahhahaXD anyway.. lazy to blog! imma hungry...! i'm missing Ice Room!!!!! such a nice place to eat in.. me wan moreeeeeeee!

anyway, buh bye!

ps: I love mwah friends =D

Shawty!

chunhong says:
Sandra Cheah Why cant guys be a little less dumb?.

Sandra says:
hahah

chunhong says:
then

chunhong says:
what are girls?

Sandra says:
smart

chunhong says:
lagi dumb, because they like guys

Sandra says:
=.=

Sandra says:
dun let me freaking slap you

chunhong says:
true what. -.-

Sandra says:
then like that

Sandra says:
if girls are lagi dumb for loving dumb guys, then what are guys?

Sandra says:
LAGI LAGI DUMB right? because they love girls who are dumb enough to like dumb guys

chunhong says:
thats why

chunhong says:
god wants them together <3

chunhong says:
peace.

chunhong says:
*sunglasses smiley*

Sandra says:
i feell like slapping you

Sandra says:
=.=

chunhong says:
..

Hawttttieeesss =P

You are the thunder and I'm the lightning =)

I feeel good eventhough i dun feel good (>.<) okay, maybe, i should put it this way.. I feel good mentally but not physically.. okay okay? =D

okay.

=.=

ANYWAYYYYY, these days, many things happenedddd... most of it are unhappy thingssss... =( which leads to sadness.. OBVIOUSLLYYYY.. buttt.. i guesssss my darlinggg is righttt...

"After every storm, there'll be a rainbow.." =D

oh! and imma seeing the rainbow nowwww!! wan me to shoowwwww youuuu? hahahahaXD aiyaaa! malas lah, aku nak ambil thumbdrive and slowly uploadddd.. ok ok..

instead.. let me upload about some hawtttttttttttttt guys picturessss.. u know what? I REALLLY FIND THEM HOT YOU KNOW!

okay, guysss.. dont be jealous because you dont look like them =X God already give you eyes, nose, mouth, ears, hands, and legs.. and a heart.. so dont complain so much =X oh! and He gave you lungs, 12 pairs of ribss.. and 33 vertebrae.. kidney, intestines, stomach, gall bladder, duodenum, bile, and anus! hahahahaXD and ofc, your reproduction organs =X


okay.. ENOUGH! this is getting.. too biologic.. X.X

everyone knows who is he.. if you dunno, take a knife and stab urself.. the famous Taylor Lautner who is shorter than Taylor Swift.. =X oh well, dont you think he's hot? but but.. he's still not my type of hot.. but still counted hot... ahahahahXD

okayy.. THIS! is realllll cute =P my all time favourite Jesse Mccartney =P

and and this guy! i think he looks a little mature here.. but wait he skates on ice! THEN, you'll fainttt... =P cause cause, it might take your breath away *faintsssss* hehe.. Matt Lanter =P

and you know, you know! the golfer... Noh Seung-Yul.. is also like damn cuteee.. the one who won the Maybank Golf Competition thingyyy.. dun wanna post his pictures up.. cause it doesnt look niceee.. when u watch the golf thingyy.. omggg.. he's so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =D cause cause that day, my dad and I were like fighting for the tv.. my dad wanted to watch golf.. so fineee.. being a really faithful daughter, i let him watch.. THEN! i spot Nohhhh! omggg.. i was like watching golf for 2 hours.. not looking at the ball but him =P hahaXD

anywayyy, enough of crap! i wanna have my lunch! so, byeee! =D

Where are you?

It's been a long time since I opened my blogsite.

Staring at my header reminds me a lot of good memories. I remember crying when I was browsing through the old pictures in my camera yesterday.

Funny.

Funny, i thought.

How could things change just in a blink of an eye..
So that's what people meant by saying, "things change" ?

But what if I dont want it to change?
What if I wanna stay like how things use to be?
What if I say I want those sleepovers back?
What if I say I missed those times when all of us chat about everything till we fall asleep?

Is it THAT impossible?

Sometimes I wonder what's the cause.
I wonder, why could friendships like this can break easily..
I wonder,

JUST WONDER,

what happened to all of us?

Does time really change things?

I thought Friends were Forever?

Reading my past post makes me cry.
Reading my old messages makes me cry.
Looking at those old pictures makes me cry.

Why must it be the past and old?
I want it to be the present!

why........... .. . .. *sigh*

Why is things changing so quickly? I'm not ready for this.

I. AM. NOT. READY!

I remember one of you said that,
"I feel so sad you know like as though you are going and not coming back.. who am I going to cry to! :( "

Now, I'm right here.

Where are you?




*sigh*

I just wanna be,

happy.