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Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Numb.

Sorry for not blogging for so long.

College just started and im just as busy as hell.

Sigh. Things are getting tougher as we grow up, no?

I feel like I need to be even tougher everyday.

It's saddening when my health problems are piling up but I don't even feel anything anymore when doctor tells me things. Like, I'm so used to the doctor telling me that there's something wrong with me.

So used to pain that I don't even feel it anymore.

So.. numb.

Whether its emotionally or physically.

Sometimes I wonder if life must be this difficult to get through. Omg, sorry for such an emo post today. I've been getting along but today is like a breaking point. I have a friend that who needs my help. I feel responsible for some things. Like if I can't even help a friend, how am I suppose to pursue my career as a music therapist to help to emotionally weak ones?

I'm not a professional, but..

I will use all my strength and ability to get this friend through difficult times. No matter how hurt and broken I am, I would never want the people around me to be upset.

But sometimes.. its difficult to answer some questions.

Omg, even I don't even know what I'm talking about. Sigh.

I've been browsing through my blog to find some pictures and its just like a roadtrip to hell/heaven. Depends how you look at things. I don't even know if its a good thing or a bad thing.

I realise I love taking pictures because that's the only thing that will last. Capturing that particular moment where everything was perfect and happy. Cause things and people do change. Very drastically. And the only way to reminiscent about them is through pictures.

Anyway,

Goodnight, people.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Great companies!

I haven't been blogging for awhile cause I was too busy hanging out with my friends and talking behind people's back. HAHAHAHA.

Don't be surprise. THAT is what girls do when they meet up.

(Y)

I realise I tend to space out and get emo when I have nothing to do.

That's normal right?

But oh well. TOOTS THAT :D

So yesterday, I went out with my 2 of my best college mates :D

They followed me to work. Haha. Cause I was on a so called mission and, they tagged along and helped me.

But in the middle of the mission, we saw someone I DIDN'T WANNA SEE.

But these two girls kept forcing me.

So I sorta ran out of the store the minute I saw THAT FACE.

I didn't understand why I was afraid. It's not like I NEED TO FEEL GUILTY OR WHATSOEVER.

I knew it wouldnt be a good idea to see that face again cause that night, which was last night, my nightmares came back.

ANYWAY, i don't give a damn about some low class liars. Like, you know clearly that I hate people lying to me and stuff like that, but thinking back, why did I get so pissed?

When there is nothing to do with me.

PMS I guess.

I remembered how mad I was, I literally wanna kick that face when I heard about it. I had my fist clenched so tight when I heard the news BUT, WHATDEVESSS,

do whatever that makes you happy,

I don't even bother about you anymore.

Cause you didnt even care how I feel AT THE FIRST PLACE.

ANYWAYYY,

back to my outing topics :D

We had Japanese and Meet Fresh! :D my favourite.

And that day, I went out with these girls, just to hang out with them in their uni and just have a little chat because without them, I won't feel what I'm feeling right now, which is being happy :)

Love themmmm SOOOOO MUCH xoxo

Oh, did I mention my fatty bro was back and.. he bought this to congratulate my results :D

He was like, SHOW ME THE EVIDENCE BEFORE I GIVE IT TO YOU.

Haih, lawyers.

And this is me watching him play Dota 2 cause I was so bored and it just makes me happy to be around him :) I'm glad he came back at the right time. I need some awesome brother like him :)

shhh! dont tell him I said he was awesome or he'll be a puffer fish!

I went out with my colleague, who is more like a elder sister to me. She's awesome and she's a shopaholic. Talking about shopping,

I think I need to go to rehab for it man.

I seem....................... to finish all my hard-earned money T.T

Hehe! she's pretty, isnt she? :P

Oh and I attended the soft opening for this new music school opened by my piano teacher. It's called EarthTone Music Academy. It's in Lakefield.

We offer so many different courses from piano, strings instruments such as cello, violin etc to woodwind instruments such as clarinet, saxaphone etc :D

i know saxaphone is not a woodwind instrument =.=

anyway,

Do drop by if you have any enquiries. We would be more than happy to help :D

But for now, bye! :D

Friday, June 28, 2013

Really Random :D

Hello!

I was reading my 2008 posts.

Just cause I don't wanna remind myself about 2009, 2010, 2011 and 2012 because it would be stupid to smile at those.. memories.

I wanted to find myself again.

Like me, ME before everything started.

It sounds really weird though.

OH WELL.

IM WEIRD.

#justsaying

and yes, this is a very random post :) and i usually post things up because its too long for me to write in on Facebook or its too personal for the PUBLIC/ FRIENDS THAT ARE NOT REALL FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK to know or question about it.

or thinks that im weird.

:S

Ciao, lovebirds! :D

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

As memories.

Good.. morning?

Its 1am and I just feel like blogging :)

I came across this song and was instantly addicted to it :) Its so true. Everything in that song. :)

I guess it reminds me of so much memories.

But its okay.

I'm gonna smile through those tears :)

I'm fine.

I realised feelings can't be erased.

So I'm just gonna put it aside. Somewhere deep down in some parts of my heart.

As memories :)

:: Dear God, I don't usually pray all the time but let me wake up with a smile tomorrow :)

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Of parties and thank yous :D

Hello :)

So, yesterday i went for Soo's birthday party.

And there's some stuff I would like to confess :D

THAT I'M NOT THE ONLY GIRL IN THE PARTY.

ahahaha.. its just that, I don't know any of the girls there and.. its like a different gang, hence,

the girl-less picture here. ahhahahahah

I had so much fun in the party.

There were some things that I needed to clear up and I did :)

Most of this guys were helping me in every way AND I REALLY THANK THEM FOR THAT :')

And, this is a picture of us laughing while cutting the cake! Love it!

And the cake :D I baked it, of course.

Some awesome oreo cheesecake. HEHE!

Oh, and I would just like to thank a few people who helped me through so many things.

I haven't been smiling so much without these people.

Although the haze is terrible today but there wasn't a second that i wasn't smiling.

Well,... even when I was in the toilet.

TMI! TMI!

(in case you don't know, it means TOO MUCH INFORMATION)

ahahhaha..

I'm so glad that my friends had supported me through the hardest times and they did everything just to make me smile again.

SO, instead of asking myself everyday what have I done to go through so much pain and misery,

I will ask myself what have I done to have this bunch of fabulous awesome friends who were by my side whenever I needed them.

you guys have no idea how much I appreciate all of you.

Your pictures might not be here, but i know who you guys are.

Each and every word of advice or any supportive things you guys said really lifted me :)

And, here, I'm gonna thank a few people in no particular order :)

Phoebe, thank you for always being there for me. To sing me a song just to make me happier.

to be upset just cause I'm upset.

Thank you so much. I never thought someone would be sad just cause I'm sad.

my cousin :D who is there to ask me to go and die cause i've been torturing myself.

To allow me to stay in her house in Singapore for a week just cause I need some time alone to think about things.

Shereen and Heng Wei :)

Their words means so so much to me that I can't even explain it.

Alisson! :D

Just to lend an ear to me was more than enough!

These terrifically awesome people who supported me and scolded me and pushed me to my limits to be brave and face things. I can't even say how thankful I am to have you guys. Really.

Ah.. these people. :)

They never say much but they would just stand there to let me vent my frustration,

listening to my rants,

getting beaten up by me just cause i'm frustrated.

Yet, they still stand there and give me a wide smile :)

Ginny :D

She slaps reality onto my face all the time.

AND I FRIGGIN ENJOYED HER SLAP.

Amanda oh amanda :)

The advices and stories she tell me.

Those moral lessons she gives me..

THANK YOU :)

Chee enn! I didn't cry so you owe me a meal :D

This small little girl can tell you what to do all the time cause she experienced it.

Not a good thing but we all learn from our mistakes :)

And thank you to xiau wei, yuen ping, 9 awesome girls, and all of you who know about what I've BEEN THROUGH. (YES! PAST TENSE FINALLY!)

In supporting me in every way. I swear I would be there for you guys as well. I would never ever turn my back on all of you. The amount of help you guys given me. Too much. Its priceless :)

So, thank you, again.

last but not least,

my pillars of hope and love.

I don't even need to say anything else about them :)

THANK YOU :)

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Singapore Trip

So I went Singapore for holidays for one whole week. And, i had a really great time. I just wanted to get off to a different environment. Just wanna chill and relax. And think about my life :)

I've had such a great time there. Here are some photos :)

Went to Orchard Road here :)

So happy that they had Laduree cause it can only be found in Paris and London and that was the first time I had it and since then I miss eating it so much. ;)

Such a pretty logo :)

My favourite are the salted caramel and coconut chocolate marshmallow :)

as you can see how excited am I :PPPP

yums!

I came across this dart thing and .. its really interesting.. hahahah NOT BEING PERVERTED. But its the first time I see such thing. ahhahahah it would be fun, no? AMONG GIRLS. haha