Really Random :D

Hello!

I was reading my 2008 posts.

Just cause I don't wanna remind myself about 2009, 2010, 2011 and 2012 because it would be stupid to smile at those.. memories.

I wanted to find myself again.

Like me, ME before everything started.

It sounds really weird though.

OH WELL.

IM WEIRD.

#justsaying

and yes, this is a very random post :) and i usually post things up because its too long for me to write in on Facebook or its too personal for the PUBLIC/ FRIENDS THAT ARE NOT REALL FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK to know or question about it.

or thinks that im weird.

:S

Ciao, lovebirds! :D

As memories.

Good.. morning?

Its 1am and I just feel like blogging :)

I came across this song and was instantly addicted to it :) Its so true. Everything in that song. :)

I guess it reminds me of so much memories.

But its okay.

I'm gonna smile through those tears :)

I'm fine.

I realised feelings can't be erased.

So I'm just gonna put it aside. Somewhere deep down in some parts of my heart.

As memories :)

:: Dear God, I don't usually pray all the time but let me wake up with a smile tomorrow :)

Of parties and thank yous :D

Hello :)

So, yesterday i went for Soo's birthday party. 

And there's some stuff I would like to confess :D

THAT I'M NOT THE ONLY GIRL IN THE PARTY.

ahahaha.. its just that, I don't know any of the girls there and.. its like a different gang, hence, 

the girl-less picture here. ahhahahahah 

I had so much fun in the party. 

There were some things that I needed to clear up and I did :)

Most of this guys were helping me in every way AND I REALLY THANK THEM FOR THAT :')

And, this is a picture of us laughing while cutting the cake! Love it!

And the cake :D I baked it, of course. 

Some awesome oreo cheesecake. HEHE!

Oh, and I would just like to thank a few people who helped me through so many things. 

I haven't been smiling so much without these people.

Although the haze is terrible today but there wasn't a second that i wasn't smiling.

Well,... even when I was in the toilet.

TMI! TMI! 

(in case you don't know, it means TOO MUCH INFORMATION) 

ahahhaha..

I'm so glad that my friends had supported me through the hardest times and they did everything just to make me smile again.

SO, instead of asking myself everyday what have I done to go through so much pain and misery,

I will ask myself what have I done to have this bunch of fabulous awesome friends who were by my side whenever I needed them.

you guys have no idea how much I appreciate all of you.

Your pictures might not be here, but i know who you guys are. 

Each and every word of advice or any supportive things you guys said really lifted me :)

And, here, I'm gonna thank a few people in no particular order :)

Phoebe, thank you for always being there for me. To sing me a song just to make me happier. 

to be upset just cause I'm upset.

Thank you so much. I never thought someone would be sad just cause I'm sad.

my cousin :D who is there to ask me to go and die cause i've been torturing myself.

To allow me to stay in her house in Singapore for a week just cause I need some time alone to think about things.

Shereen and Heng Wei :)

Their words means so so much to me that I can't even explain it.

Alisson! :D

Just to lend an ear to me was more than enough!

These terrifically awesome people who supported me and scolded me and pushed me to my limits to be brave and face things. I can't even say how thankful I am to have you guys. Really.

Ah.. these people. :)

They never say much but they would just stand there to let me vent my frustration,

listening to my rants,

getting beaten up by me just cause i'm frustrated.

Yet, they still stand there and give me a wide smile :)

Ginny :D

She slaps reality onto my face all the time.

AND I FRIGGIN ENJOYED HER SLAP.

Amanda oh amanda :)

The advices and stories she tell me.

Those moral lessons she gives me.. 

THANK YOU :)

Chee enn! I didn't cry so you owe me a meal :D

This small little girl can tell you what to do all the time cause she experienced it.

Not a good thing but we all learn from our mistakes :)

And thank you to xiau wei, yuen ping, 9 awesome girls, and all of you who know about what I've BEEN THROUGH. (YES! PAST TENSE FINALLY!)

In supporting me in every way. I swear I would be there for you guys as well. I would never ever turn my back on all of you. The amount of help you guys given me. Too much. Its priceless :)

So, thank you, again.

last but not least,

my pillars of hope and love.

I don't even need to say anything else about them :)

THANK YOU :)

Singapore Trip

So I went Singapore for holidays for one whole week. And, i had a really great time. I just wanted to get off to a different environment. Just wanna chill and relax. And think about my life :)

I've had such a great time there. Here are some photos :)

Went to Orchard Road here :)

So happy that they had Laduree cause it can only be found in Paris and London and that was the first time I had it and since then I miss eating it so much. ;)

Such a pretty logo :)

My favourite are the salted caramel and coconut chocolate marshmallow :)

as you can see how excited am I :PPPP

yums!

I came across this dart thing and .. its really interesting.. hahahah NOT BEING PERVERTED. But its the first time I see such thing. ahhahahah it would be fun, no? AMONG GIRLS. haha

they had the guy one as well.

Outside the train station :)

Random picture.

So adorable :3

It was smurf's birthday, so they had this photo thingy.

SUPER CUTE SMURFS :)

I thought.... it was an Indonesian flag... hahahahhahaXD

SAW US SAW US?! :D

SPOT US!

Tadaaa~

HEYLO FROM UNIQLO! it rhymes..

... ikr. i know its lame.

Saw this in Bugis Street and i was like VHAAAAT?!

Met up with one of my ICOM friend who is no longer studying in ICOM.

HELLO MONSTER! :D

Love poking his eye! wee!

Barbie World!

Feel like singing the Barbie song.

I graduated from Monster's Uni :D

She's my cousin sister in law which I met up there as well :D

She was there for a business trip.

Another random picture of me.

A MORE RANDOM PICTURE. haha.

So we went to my cousin's cousin's apartment and THE POOL THERE IS SO OHHHH-SOME!

They had underwater gym. SUPER COOL KAYS!

Oh, we made sushi to eat in the Adventure Cove. You guys have to go there. Its a 10 times cleaner waterpark than Sunway Lagoon. HAHAHA.

On the way walking back from Sentosa. The lights were just too pretty. Don't you think so?

Scream it out loud, let it all go :)

Had so much learning how to play the ukulele from my cousin's cousin :D

Oh well, the other photos are in Facebook. OH! and check out our Plush Toy Harlem Shake video and I'm Your's cover :D

CLICK THE LINK TO WATCH IM YOUR'S COVER! 

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151716364893659&set=vb.503758658&type=3&theater

and the HARLEM SHAKE VIDEO. ahhahah!

I know we were weird. I'm always weird. =.=

Ciao!

Effamelle.

Hi.

I just posted about Sunway lagoon and trips to Ipoh and Penang.

But, in actual fact, I'm feeling really unhappy right now.

There's so many things going through my mind.

Doing music really really isn't an easy task.

Getting 90 marks is JUST an A- , and of course, A is 93marks and A+ is 96 onwards.

The grades are wayyyy to high, I think.

Therefore, getting a GPA of 4.00 is nearly impossible. So, I got my results today and to me, it was disappointing. Although to many people, its considered really good. But its just that, I have my expectations. And, I had really been working my ass off to shift my mind off from so many things. Although I did quite well but I wanted to be better because I NEED to go Berklee College Of Music. You have to be BETTER than the best to be there. Its the one of the most prestigious music school in the whole wide world. Its like getting into LSE for Economics.

People tell me not to push myself too much.

How not to? I really need to get out from this country. This life I'm living, its not even A LIFE. I NEED A CHANGE. I need to leave. ASAP.

It's really crazy. I had to be unhappy over the same thing again and again, I had to wake up in the middle of the night over the same nightmare again and again. I had to think about the same thing every morning I wake up. ITS KILLING ME, SERIOUSLY.

I lost myself.

I'm trying so hard to gather myself together and be happy and stuff. But, sigh.

Yes, I have a great family and really fantastic friends. But everyone have their own problems.

So do I.

I appear to be this really strong girl who keeps a smile on her face EVERY SINGLE DAY. But there's still things deep inside my heart which is killing me softly.

Sigh.

I'm disappointed in myself in SO MANY MANY WAYS.

I shouldn't be unhappy, because I have everything I want. I am independent, strong, great friends, lovely family, supportive people everywhere etc. But, ahhhhhh!!!!!!! I WANNA SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT.

I HATE THISSSSS.

I'm disappointed that I disappoint people around me.

My friends, they try to help me. They are there for me all the time.

BUT WHY CAN'T MY WOUND HEAL?

FML.

:'(

Hey-low.

Holiday started and the first place I went with my friends is Sunway Lagoon.

The last time I went it was with........ MY FRIENDS as well. 

That was like.. in Form 5. After SPM.

So I went back to that pool where there was that Hippo. Its the same Hippo there but.. 

ugh. 

I was happy but like, some memories just kill, don't they?  :( Sigh.

And not to mention, i was punched by my guy friend accidentally with full force and my face is still bruised :( ugh.......!

Anyway, just some photos of the outing with my ICOM friends :)

AWESOME GIRLSSSS :DDD

er, just so you know, that "girl" behind me is a GUY. =.= ahahhaha

THIS ONE AS WELL.

AND THIS. haha.

Cacat-ed start by the girls :/

Group photo! But not a complete one. Every one of these people here helped me alot in going through many many things. I appreciate them so much. <3 p="">

 This is me. (DUH) on the way to Penang. 8)

Some sunset from Penang.

This was in Ipoh (Y) TOO GOOD. tskkk tskkk i miss food.

Weird selca of myself :/

 On the way back from Penang. Looks like a lady sleeping sideways, no? Haha.

Penang food :D

During a company dinner in Penang which was the main reason I went there. 

I have the BEST PARENTS IN THE WORLD <3 p="">

Last but not least, STILL FOOD.

Till then,