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today, i spent 7 hours in Pavillion with my brother's girlfriend and my mom.. we ate at starhill for FREE~~ and it was super yummy... later on, we went for shopping.. mostly,.. THEY go for shopping.. i've just been sitting on the couch wherever they went.. just sit there.. i wonder why i'm so tired.. my mind is so tired of thinkings.. but, i manage to get renny's present too..

later on, my bro and dad joined us.. and we had dinner.. and again.. they went for shopping and i just sit down on any cushion as though i'm an old grandma waiting for their grandchildren finish shopping.. and i only saw ONE sbu-ian there.. which i was a form4.. not really close also.. didnt even say hi.. but alex did.. throughout the outing, i kept sitting and reading my biography novel.. and when i get bored.. i just.. sit.. and think.. and think.. where did went wrong??

i.. i.. just cant accept bad facts.. but, i guess, all good things will come to an end too.. another guy cried..and i SERIOUSLY dunno what to do.. other than saying .. "its okay.. just focus on your studies, you're still young, dun think about it.." hearing their sobbings and attempts on saying just the word "ok" and trying to through the lump on their throat to avoid breaking down is just making my heart -aching..

you know, if a guy cries in front of me.. i feel scared.. its like a girl is crying in front of a guy.. and the guy is fully blank and shocked.. and seriously dunno what to do.. well, that's my reaction.. i SERIOUSLY.. as in REALLY SERIOUSLY dont.know.what.to.do.. i am so.. i dunno how to explain..

that is all i can say.. i feel so stupid repeating those words on two parties.. i really.. feel so.. DAMN silly... i.. i seriously dunno what to do.. i just realise that.. guys, are just as fragile as girls.. they actually do whatEVER girls do when bad things visit them.. and i just wonder.. why..

WHY MUST GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END?? why cant god just make everyone, every single soul happy??

well, i guess, most of you will say..

LIFE'S LIKE THAT.. instead of doing something stupid, why dont you just ACCEPT IT with grace..

all we need is TIME.. omgg.. making me thinking of what happen in just a short time, is seriously making me feel DARN FREAKING SAD.. hearing them sobbing, makes me sob too.. its hurts just to hear that..

i have no more further comments.. i'm sick of this sickening world that cause more than one litre of tears..